One Decision & One Promise

Last night I made a decision and a promise to myself.

THE DECISION: I am going to keep the promises that I make to myself.

THE PROMISE: I will exercise for 30 minutes every day for 30 days.

Rachel Hollis asks us to consider, “What if we don’t break promises to ourselves?” That got me thinking about the promises that I have made to myself  in the past. My life for the past 3 years has been a series of moments where I have let myself down. I didn’t really trust myself anymore. I knew that my word was unreliable. I can 100% say that before today I didn’t keep any promises that I made to myself. I may have attempted to commit to something, but in the end if I changed my mind, then I would let myself off the hook.

I find it difficult to say this, but I was in a lazy rut when it came to self care. If I thought it was going to be uncomfortable or hard (like working out or eating clean) then I would just pass. And look where that has gotten me!

Well, that was the old me. The new me is going to keep the promises that I make to myself. Because of that, I’m going to be very mindful about what I do promise. I want to do this so I can prove to myself that I can. I also, want to do this so that I can create a new habit.

I actually feel a little nervous about my promise, because I don’t want to fail. I am going to post an Instagram pic every day during my workout to help me feel accountable. Ya know…did it even happen if you didn’t take a pic???

So, here’s to day 1.

I found my word for 2019!

Okay, so it has taken me almost 6 weeks, but I found my word. Audacity is my word for 2019. I have big goals and big plans for this year. I am ready to take risks and do what it takes to achieve my goals.

I have set a new career goal for myself and I know that if I want a different career than what I have now (I’m currently a speech language pathologist), it’s up to me to make that happen.

The first thing that I am going to have to conquer is my weight. I have to get healthy before I can focus on any other goal. This is something that I am taking very seriously. I am in my 3rd week of the FASTer Way to Fat Loss Program and I am loving it! Seriously, I haven’t felt this good in years.

Just a few weeks ago I was feeling so sad that I let my body get so out of shape. That’s a really nice way of saying, “so fat!” I still don’t recognize the person in the mirror. I am not willing to give up and just live like this.

I read the quote pictured below and I believe this is true for me. I want to move this mountain so I can help other women over 40 who are in a similar situation, carrying extra weight and feeling as if they are stuck because they have tried every diet in the book with no success.

I am determined to achieve this goal. I am not going to let self doubt win this time! It doesn’t matter how many times that I have started again. It just matters that I’m here now and I’m showing up today. This is going to happen.

One Goal

I will be home in a few days from our end of year vacation. Every year we leave town the day after Christmas and head to the beach with our kids and their new toys.

It’s a great way to end the year and prepare for the next.

My guru Rachel Hollis has created a journal called The Start Today Journal. It helps you to envision your life in 10 years and to create 10 dreams that you have for yourself. It then guides you to break those dreams into goals. It’s awesome! I highly recommend this journal.

So, I have a list of goals that I want to accomplish in the next 10 years. Rachel says that I need to focus on one goal. I have chosen the goal that is going to have the biggest impact on my life right now. Achieving this goal is going to put me in a position to reach the next goal. Until I conquer my weight I will continue to be distracted by this on a daily basis. I am not free to focus on any other goals. I have to check this off of my list. I’m so tired of thinking/talking about my weight. My first goal for 2019 is losing weight and getting healthy.

My goal is to lose 70 lbs. Ugh! It’s tough to even write that number! I have got to reach this goal before I can focus on the other goals that I have for myself. I want to lose this weight over a 6 month period. I know that this is an aggressive timeline, but I’m going to shoot for it.

I get great satisfaction to have visual aids around to keep me focused on my goal. I’m planning to use the items listed below.

  1. Wall Calendar with stickers and weekly goals visible
  2. Vision Board
  3. Weight loss tracker clothes pin board
  4. Affirmations posted throughout the house

I will share in another post more about these things.

2019 Begins Here

Happy New Year! Today is the first day of 2019. Yesterday was also my birthday which means I am truly beginning a new year. Exhale 2018 and inhale 2019.

I had a great night celebrating last night. A low key night with my family at the beach, drinking, laughing and ringing in the new year.

I am so ready to begin a new year. 2018 was full of so many great and blessed moments, but the underlying tone of the year was one of consistently letting myself down. I could not commit to self care and it’s literally all that I thought about.

So, a new year means a fresh start with goals. Goals that excite me and scare me at the same time. I am envisioning the most magnificent possible version of myself. I believe that all things are possible with Christ and I know He is with me on this journey!