One Decision & One Promise

Last night I made a decision and a promise to myself.

THE DECISION: I am going to keep the promises that I make to myself.

THE PROMISE: I will exercise for 30 minutes every day for 30 days.

Rachel Hollis asks us to consider, “What if we don’t break promises to ourselves?” That got me thinking about the promises that I have made to myself  in the past. My life for the past 3 years has been a series of moments where I have let myself down. I didn’t really trust myself anymore. I knew that my word was unreliable. I can 100% say that before today I didn’t keep any promises that I made to myself. I may have attempted to commit to something, but in the end if I changed my mind, then I would let myself off the hook.

I find it difficult to say this, but I was in a lazy rut when it came to self care. If I thought it was going to be uncomfortable or hard (like working out or eating clean) then I would just pass. And look where that has gotten me!

Well, that was the old me. The new me is going to keep the promises that I make to myself. Because of that, I’m going to be very mindful about what I do promise. I want to do this so I can prove to myself that I can. I also, want to do this so that I can create a new habit.

I actually feel a little nervous about my promise, because I don’t want to fail. I am going to post an Instagram pic every day during my workout to help me feel accountable. Ya know…did it even happen if you didn’t take a pic???

So, here’s to day 1.

I found my word for 2019!

Okay, so it has taken me almost 6 weeks, but I found my word. Audacity is my word for 2019. I have big goals and big plans for this year. I am ready to take risks and do what it takes to achieve my goals.

I have set a new career goal for myself and I know that if I want a different career than what I have now (I’m currently a speech language pathologist), it’s up to me to make that happen.

The first thing that I am going to have to conquer is my weight. I have to get healthy before I can focus on any other goal. This is something that I am taking very seriously. I am in my 3rd week of the FASTer Way to Fat Loss Program and I am loving it! Seriously, I haven’t felt this good in years.

Just a few weeks ago I was feeling so sad that I let my body get so out of shape. That’s a really nice way of saying, “so fat!” I still don’t recognize the person in the mirror. I am not willing to give up and just live like this.

I read the quote pictured below and I believe this is true for me. I want to move this mountain so I can help other women over 40 who are in a similar situation, carrying extra weight and feeling as if they are stuck because they have tried every diet in the book with no success.

I am determined to achieve this goal. I am not going to let self doubt win this time! It doesn’t matter how many times that I have started again. It just matters that I’m here now and I’m showing up today. This is going to happen.