I found my word for 2019!

Okay, so it has taken me almost 6 weeks, but I found my word. Audacity is my word for 2019. I have big goals and big plans for this year. I am ready to take risks and do what it takes to achieve my goals.

I have set a new career goal for myself and I know that if I want a different career than what I have now (I’m currently a speech language pathologist), it’s up to me to make that happen.

The first thing that I am going to have to conquer is my weight. I have to get healthy before I can focus on any other goal. This is something that I am taking very seriously. I am in my 3rd week of the FASTer Way to Fat Loss Program and I am loving it! Seriously, I haven’t felt this good in years.

Just a few weeks ago I was feeling so sad that I let my body get so out of shape. That’s a really nice way of saying, “so fat!” I still don’t recognize the person in the mirror. I am not willing to give up and just live like this.

I read the quote pictured below and I believe this is true for me. I want to move this mountain so I can help other women over 40 who are in a similar situation, carrying extra weight and feeling as if they are stuck because they have tried every diet in the book with no success.

I am determined to achieve this goal. I am not going to let self doubt win this time! It doesn’t matter how many times that I have started again. It just matters that I’m here now and I’m showing up today. This is going to happen.

FASTer Way to Fat Loss…YES!

I recently heard about this program called the FASTer Way to Fat Loss and I totally believe that this could be a program that I could adopt for life. If you have not heard of this, then you should google it.

Today is Prep Week of the 6 week program. It incorporates intermittent fasting, carb cycling. It’s gluten free and dairy free. Amanda Tress, the founder of the program says, “If it comes from the ground or has a mother than it’s approved to eat.”

Yesterday I weighed myself, took measurements and had my 6 year old daughter take my “before” pics. Before pics are always such a joy to take and to look at. This is literally the worst I have ever looked. THE WORST! I will share those pics, but I want to wait until I make some progress.

Live Coaching session with Amanda Tress

Today’s goals:

  • FWTFL Coaching Session
  • Cardio
  • Water! Drink 1/2 my body weight in water
  • Only eat between 12:00 pm and 8:00 pm
  • Eat <50 grams of net carbs (Monday and Tuesday are low carb days)
  • Stay Optimistic!

I would love to hear from you if you have participated in the FWTFL program. I would love to hear your experience.


I didn’t know…I DIDN’T KNOW!!!

So, I am one of those people who was really thin until I had my first baby when I was 27 years old. I used to feel self conscious with my husband because I felt that my hip bones stuck out too much. WTF! I wish that I had such problems now.

I think back to when I was thin and I totally didn’t understand that I should appreciate it. It’s so messed up.
My husband and I when we were young (obviously it was the 80’s).

I spent a good amount of time in 2018 feeling overwhelmed by the weight that I’m carrying now. I would think about weight loss daily, but that’s where it stopped. I made many, many attempts to lose weight, but I never lost more than a few pounds. I just continued to gain weight.

I work full time and so my nights would consist of eating in restaurants and drinking wine.

Over the past 5 years I have constantly put on weight. I believe that I actually have progress photos that actually show the progression of weight gain. It’s awful!

150 lbs ish
NOT Pregnant. I seriously look like I am though.
Lord, help me.

And here I am today.

Losing weight feels like a daunting task. The other options are to not lose the weight or even worse to continue gaining weight, which are not options for me.

I’m going to do the hard thing. I’m going to become my best self this year. I want to prove that an overweight mom who drinks wine too much can change her ways and turn back the clock. I used to feel pretty. I used to enjoy shopping. I used to have self confidence. I’m not willing to give all that up. I believe that I’m going to become happier as I make better decisions for myself.

I am currently still at the beach with my family.

I go home on Saturday, so my new year will officially start Jan. 6th.