I didn’t know…I DIDN’T KNOW!!!

So, I am one of those people who was really thin until I had my first baby when I was 27 years old. I used to feel self conscious with my husband because I felt that my hip bones stuck out too much. WTF! I wish that I had such problems now.

I think back to when I was thin and I totally didn’t understand that I should appreciate it. It’s so messed up.
My husband and I when we were young (obviously it was the 80’s).

I spent a good amount of time in 2018 feeling overwhelmed by the weight that I’m carrying now. I would think about weight loss daily, but that’s where it stopped. I made many, many attempts to lose weight, but I never lost more than a few pounds. I just continued to gain weight.

I work full time and so my nights would consist of eating in restaurants and drinking wine.

Over the past 5 years I have constantly put on weight. I believe that I actually have progress photos that actually show the progression of weight gain. It’s awful!

150 lbs ish
NOT Pregnant. I seriously look like I am though.
Lord, help me.

And here I am today.

Losing weight feels like a daunting task. The other options are to not lose the weight or even worse to continue gaining weight, which are not options for me.

I’m going to do the hard thing. I’m going to become my best self this year. I want to prove that an overweight mom who drinks wine too much can change her ways and turn back the clock. I used to feel pretty. I used to enjoy shopping. I used to have self confidence. I’m not willing to give all that up. I believe that I’m going to become happier as I make better decisions for myself.

I am currently still at the beach with my family.

I go home on Saturday, so my new year will officially start Jan. 6th.